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And as the blood runs off of this blade,
And drips out onto this far out glade.
I really wish I'd told you no,
I really wish I had told you "don't go".

And as the tears ran from your eye,
I wish I could've made them dry.
But right now I wish more than anything,
That you were mine, because I am nothing.

Without You.

I love you Jennifer.
No, I'm not cutting, yet, I remember my promise.
It just fits into a dream...
I wish I had said these words...
I really, really do... :'( I love you.

Edit : Went viral.
Not a single piece of useful advice.
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DarlingAngel0565 Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2012  Professional Writer
:tears: :huggle:
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KaKashi-GirlFriend Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Alot of people won't have advice or just won't want to share it. But just because you didn't say them before doesn't mean you can't tell her now. It might help.
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Kaelan-Pixie Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2012
I can't really give you advice but I can remind you that you aren't alone... I hope everything works out.
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MrRikko Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2012
sad but truly great
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:iconmsmysteriousstranger:
((Opens arms and embraces))
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KittyKat0503 Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012
This is an amazing poem! Have you considered reciting/telling/sharing this poem with her?
I really believe that she would love to hear this.
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012
I doubt it.
It has cutting in it, for a start.
I've also told her I don't want to lose her.
But every time I tell her, she just says
"I can't talk about this right now".

And yeah -
2 hours ago
Jenni R Watson



i can't. because every time i try and do it, it all goes wrong and i don't know what I'm trying to say. I'm just so confused right now, i don't know if i want to be with you, if i don't. i don't know if we could work, if we couldn't. because what if i DO take you back, but then it turns out it doesn't work out again? i can't do that to you!! i can't do it to myself either. all i wanted today was for you to stop me, when i asked you to speak, i wanted you to say something that would make everything clear, give me a definitive answer one way or the other but in the end, as always whenever we talk about stuff, it came down to me and still makes me wonder after if it was the right thing

^ <--- That.
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KittyKat0503 Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2012
I think she just needs a bit of time... Right now, she probably want's support. She's scared to break you're heart as well as her own.
Probably because you're the one person she trusts/likes. She probably fears that if something goes wrong, she would/will lose everything/anything she has left.

I suggest that you be there, and support her. Show her that you're willing to wait for her and be there for her. That she doesn't have to be scared about what will happen and you will help her through that.

That's the best advice I can give from what I've read. But supporting her and showing her that you really do like/love her and care for her, could take a while. Eventually she will realize that and be thankful that you do.
I do hope this helps.
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2012
Impossible. I said as much, but then she said to leave her alone for a week.
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KittyKat0503 Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2012
Hmmm... Has she said anything odd lately? Like, something such as, she hasn't been feeling good lately or gotten together and recently split up? You don't have to answer these... Just trying to help... If I had someone like you who was showing interest like you, I wouldn't be saying for you to leave me alone without a reason...
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SephirothVVC Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
ive been there man...it sucks :/
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vivalaresistance36 Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012
I'm so sorry.......this was really powerful, although it sounds like you've been through hell. I'm so sorry. I hope it all works out.
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txwolfebane Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012
I feel your pain, don't cut yourself, I made that mistake and I will never get my hand back...
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TheShadowgirls Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
sad
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Anime-girl-dreams Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I think you should tell her.
I think it would save you so much pain
and I think it would be good.

Try to take this advice in mind.
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MaritheOnii-san Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Student Artist
You should tell her
I may only be 14 and probably not know shit but I'm a girl and I would want to know if u protested against breaking up I mean there had to have been a reason right?
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Fluopiscis Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Student General Artist
Okay first, [link]

And I am so sorry bro. Breakup is probably one of the worst pains people put themselves through D:
and although we've only just met i am totally here for you if you need some support //brick'd
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012
Mhm.

2 hours ago
Jenni R Watson



i can't. because every time i try and do it, it all goes wrong and i don't know what I'm trying to say. I'm just so confused right now, i don't know if i want to be with you, if i don't. i don't know if we could work, if we couldn't. because what if i DO take you back, but then it turns out it doesn't work out again? i can't do that to you!! i can't do it to myself either. all i wanted today was for you to stop me, when i asked you to speak, i wanted you to say something that would make everything clear, give me a definitive answer one way or the other but in the end, as always whenever we talk about stuff, it came down to me and still makes me wonder after if it was the right thing


^ <--- If I'd just contradicted her, I'd still have her. But I had to do the noble thing, and just comfort her as she cried, wishing with every fibre of my being it wasn't happening. If all I'd done was say "I don't want to break-up, we can fix this", it would've worked. And now, it's too late. And I missed my chance.
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Fluopiscis Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2012  Student General Artist
It seems like she wants some sort of definite answer, right? I suppose you could just giver her that. It seems like you definitely love her and want to be with her, and that might just be enough. It also seems like she's concerned that this whole scenario might repeat itself, and it might. But this current one has made you two stronger both individually, and as a couple. So maybe if you do end up breaking up again, you would know how to handle it a little better.

And I suppose when it all comes down to it, wouldn't you rather just try again instead of just letting go? I know that's kind of tricky to work with, because I don't know how she'd react if you tried to get back together, but you probably do. Just use your best judgement here (I mean, who knows? Girls are girls and this whole thing might be because she just wants a little space or time to gather her thoughts).

I'm sorry, I think I just contradicted myself a gazillion times, so this is probably totally useless information XDD;
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2012
Well.
I tried again.
I did the whole cliché.
Roses and chocolates.
And she said "It's an empty gesture, because I'm not going to take you back after just a day"
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Fluopiscis Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2012  Student General Artist
Aw man I am so sorry D:
But she did say "after just a day"
so maybe
there's hope?
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2012
She told me the truth.
"You have to give me a week.
And you also have to know it's very unlikely I'll take you back even then when I've had a think about it."
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blackparadebullet Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Oh my gosh I'm sorry dude :'( please don't cut your self it's not worth it :huggle: and it's weird my names Jennifer too
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gronodon Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
:icontearplz: this is what happened to me... 3 long months... she even cut herself, this was scary accurate...
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summerday27 Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Maybe you should tell her how you feel?
My sympathy goes out to you, my good sir. I feel your pain. :hug: I really hope things end out well for you two.
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ArtofDezzy Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012
Dont cry it is hard i know but always keep your head up this is a link to hopefully make you happy :)

[link]
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CoLoRFuLLCaTT Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012
I know that your truly hurt, and probably dieing inside, but I just want you to know that it will undoubtedly get better. I wont say that I understand your pain, but my heart goes out to you nonetheless. I wish that someone in at least one of the relationships that I ended had felt like this about me. She doesn't know how truly luck she is, I would kill for one of my ex's to be able to say this about me... sorry didn't mean to talk about myself. This probably means nothing coming from a complete stranger, and I know it sounds stupid, but if you ever want to talk feel free to note me, okay? I wouldn't wish for you to harm yourself in anyway, so please try talking to someone instead if you can. :)
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012
Hah...

2 hours ago
Jenni R Watson



i can't. because every time i try and do it, it all goes wrong and i don't know what I'm trying to say. I'm just so confused right now, i don't know if i want to be with you, if i don't. i don't know if we could work, if we couldn't. because what if i DO take you back, but then it turns out it doesn't work out again? i can't do that to you!! i can't do it to myself either. all i wanted today was for you to stop me, when i asked you to speak, i wanted you to say something that would make everything clear, give me a definitive answer one way or the other but in the end, as always whenever we talk about stuff, it came down to me and still makes me wonder after if it was the right thing


^ <--- I haven't cried in years.
Her breaking up with me, I cried later.
Re-reading this makes me cry, I know nearly every word.
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CoLoRFuLLCaTT Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2012
I know its painful right now since its a fresh wound, but you should take a break. For just a few days think and reflect on everything that has happened between the two of you. Find out what you could say or do to make her give you another chance. And from her message it sounds like she is craving some alone time to think about everything that has recently happened and try to understand he emotions. Trust me, I know it seems like you can't live without her right now but just try to think about other happier things for just a few days, like 2 or 3 days. Then figure out what to do from there.

I know that it seems impossible to think about anything else but try finding something to occupy you. Right now taking a break from everything seems like the best choice so that you wont come off as obsessive and drive her away even more.... Does it make sense?

There is nothing wrong with crying, as stupid as that sounds coming from a girl. Its a stress reliever and it helps you get your emotions under control. Its understandable that you would cry since you had became attached to Jenni.
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Vivigirl13 Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012
:hug:
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WinterWolf10 Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Awww, Reaper. Its so beautiful and moving. :( I'm sorry you feel this way.
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012
I'm sorry I feel this way too Becks, really, I am.
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WinterWolf10 Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
:hug: I know you are. I'm trying to think of a way to help you.
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Midda-the-Cat Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Love is hard...and again I feel so helpless reading how you feel :(
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hells-disasterpiece Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Student General Artist
reaper that is truly moving and beautiful.....may i ask what the back story or inspiration for this piece was
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012
I got dumped.
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hells-disasterpiece Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Student General Artist
My feelings are with ya man but seriously that is a truly moving piece
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suzukoyan Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Student Artisan Crafter
awwww reaper your going to make me cry, are you ok i feel bad reaper, can i do anything?
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