Stanza 1: Loud Music-Makes things jumbled. i cant concentrate. Smoking-Almost everyone in my family smokes..I've always wanted to be excepted by them, and i thought that by MAYBE smoking i would..but all i can say is that I've never tried it.
Stanza 2: Partying-I act like i do certain things..just to be excepted..when i just sit on my bed at home..thinking about what would be good to take pictures of that's all. Young adult-I try to just stay out of peoples way so that i DON'T get underestimated..
Stanza 3: Insecurity-I am very very insecure. I literally dread school sometimes..because i always focus on what other people are thinking. I'm also one of those people that..stares. I look and pick out who they are. a lot of peoples facial expressions give a lot away. Winning-I don't know that feeling..i just..don't win.
Stanza 4: Math-I wish that i could get things done like you do. without a calculator. im stupid when it comes to math. Hatred-Everyone seems to hate for one reason or another. Maybe because in second grade i blew off the cool kids for the kid who didn't have anything for lunch and was crying. maybe i GAVE UP the chance at being popular..i don't know.
Stanza 5: Fears-I act like nothing ever bothers me..but really..i hate the idea of me dying in an early age..and im afraid of what people think..(interesting fact ((well it depends on what u find interesting)) the first question i always ask people is either "what are u thinking?" or "what do u think of me?") Parent Issue-When people tell me im just like my mother..i want to cry. i never knew her..she died when i was nine months old..so it has become one of my fears..that i become a great and lovely person like her..and die at the age of 23 :/
You can't live your life in fear of the past repeating itself. That is what I know, not what I think. I know it's scary. But if everyone feared death, then no one would do anything
thanks for the hug! means alot..but ive told myself that..and ive gotten better about it. but its still there. im not more...afraid...than i am about being wrong in telling myself im not afraid. if...you understand that?
The honesty is both...blatant...but protective...hmm.. Anyway. You and I are a lot alike. How rare. I adore the simplicity..it's as if you're just answering the questions that are constantly thrown at you with the transient hope that someone takes an interest but the underlying realization that you kind of don't want them to. Other people are annoying. It's like saying to yourself, "If only they could know me, they might love me." but having the permanant reassurance that no one else may even be capable of understanding who you even are because there are so many facets to the lives of every one of us..and regular people seem like the sort who don't want to open their eyes.
Stanza 1:
Loud Music-Makes things jumbled. i cant concentrate.
Smoking-Almost everyone in my family smokes..I've always wanted to be excepted by them, and i thought that by MAYBE smoking i would..but all i can say is that I've never tried it.
Stanza 2:
Partying-I act like i do certain things..just to be excepted..when i just sit on my bed at home..thinking about what would be good to take pictures of
Young adult-I try to just stay out of peoples way so that i DON'T get underestimated..
Stanza 3:
Insecurity-I am very very insecure. I literally dread school sometimes..because i always focus on what other people are thinking. I'm also one of those people that..stares. I look and pick out who they are. a lot of peoples facial expressions give a lot away.
Winning-I don't know that feeling..i just..don't win.
Stanza 4:
Math-I wish that i could get things done like you do. without a calculator. im stupid when it comes to math.
Hatred-Everyone seems to hate for one reason or another. Maybe because in second grade i blew off the cool kids for the kid who didn't have anything for lunch and was crying. maybe i GAVE UP the chance at being popular..i don't know.
Stanza 5:
Fears-I act like nothing ever bothers me..but really..i hate the idea of me dying in an early age..and im afraid of what people think..(interesting fact ((well it depends on what u find interesting)) the first question i always ask people is either "what are u thinking?" or "what do u think of me?")
Parent Issue-When people tell me im just like my mother..i want to cry. i never knew her..she died when i was nine months old..so it has become one of my fears..that i become a great and lovely person like her..and die at the age of 23 :/
So..what are you thinking at the moment? hm?
That is what I know, not what I think. I know it's scary.
But if everyone feared death, then no one would do anything
Anyway. You and I are a lot alike.
I adore the simplicity..it's as if you're just answering the questions that are constantly thrown at you with the transient hope that someone takes an interest but the underlying realization that you kind of don't want them to. Other people are annoying. It's like saying to yourself, "If only they could know me, they might love me." but having the permanant reassurance that no one else may even be capable of understanding who you even are because there are so many facets to the lives of every one of us..and regular people seem like the sort who don't want to open their eyes.
I know this is the most easily readable of my work.
Even if it is roundabout.
But still, very well done