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I need to hurt myself... No, you don't.
I did this... I need to hurt myself for it.
It won't go away if you do, you know it won't.
But everything in life has its consequence...

Maybe if I hurt myself, then I won't have to feel them,
Maybe it'll be consequence enough, if I'm hurt then.
Maybe she won't dump me for what I did too,
Maybe it'll be consequence enough for what I did to you.

I don't get why you're worried though...
But I dream the future, read my poetry, sometimes, I do.
And a few nights I felt a crossover, a nightmare come true,
And now I know that it has happened, because of what I did to you.

So now, I need to hurt myself, to give me a consequence,
So now, I need to fade away, and never be spoken of since.
And now, I want to hurt myself, to save myself more pain,
But all things come to an end, and it's always the same.
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DRAGONlolidk123 Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2012
I'd leave a comment saying that this is sad.... but everybody else has already said that. I'd say that the speaker shouldn't hurt himself/ herself because that's not going to help anthing but that might be a little insensitive and it's clear that the speaker believes they have good reason to harm themselves, however I sort of understand where the speaker is coming from, so I'll just say this...This is a beautiful, albeit sad piece. I like it though :D. And I hope you feel better soon :D
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chiaroscuro24176 Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2012
I understand this poem so well
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Tomaolykos Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You must never let sadness and sorrow take in. When I was still struggling to finish Highschool, but only got low grades, I tended to have suicidal thoughts. Now, look at me: graduated in History, and thinking in take a Mestry later a Doctorship in Ancient Egyptian religion.
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012
Lucky you.
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Masked-Bandit Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
I hope you feel a little better now :tighthug: after getting some of the feelings out in words. The pen is mightier than the sword. It is amazing how strongly someone's feelings can be conveyed in words, and I think this piece you've written can be related to by many, certainly myself for I resorted to cutting for a long time... If you need to talk, just to vent or anything, if I can do anything to help you relieve the hurt you are feeling inside, then please let me know.
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2012
Mhm, thanks Rey.
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SimplyKristina Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
Your poem i can relate too favorited it :)
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AbysmalEternity Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Between this and the last thing I happened to comment on.. Did something happen?
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
It's more or less I'm going to get dumped.
Almost certainly I think :/
And I'm not exactly happy.
And the dream (the reality) was just a dream.
But it often predicts things, and it could've been this.
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Midda-the-Cat Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You really don't. I believe you don't.
I don't know how it is and I've never understood people who hurt themselves. After reading this I feel bad now. I often adapt unwillingly others' mood when I read about it. Only when I read.
Does it really help? This question isn't rhetorical. I'm very worried.
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
Writing it helped.
Hurting usually helps...
But I didn't do it.
And now my heart hurts anyway...
I'm not used to that, emotional pain..
Any way to get rid of it?
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Midda-the-Cat Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You can't imagine how I relieved...
Good that writing helps you. Something has to. And I still don't think cutting yourself would change anything. Usually when you start it's hard to stop. Of course I can be wrong, I haven't tried.
And talking about pain... No one is used to. I experienced only the pain connected with death. I'm so sorry, but I can't give any good advice, no matter how much I'd like to. I don't really remember what I did. I'm usually like armadillo. I just lock myself and wait. Eventually it becomes ok again. But i don't recommend that way.
Oh, I don't know what to write, I feel so helpless. Though I'd like to make you feel better, even a little bit :c
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
XDDD You're Rammus.
I got my Anivia :D You need to play LoL with me sometime :P
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Midda-the-Cat Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hah x3 ok, now you got it. I'll register :D but not this weekend, too much learning. But i promise :hug: I'll write when I learn to play good enough with one champ. Maybe Caitlyn will be first...
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
XDDDD Okay :)
My first ever champ was Kayle.
And I penta regularly with her now <333
I go kayle mid and people ridicule me >.<
I then get 30/3/15 xDDD
Before I had someone who I played with usually on the enemy team.
"OH NO, NOT KAYLE! ANYTHING BUT KAYLE!"
They surrendered at 20 :D
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Midda-the-Cat Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Woah, I've never seen penta! :noes: I suppose to better not have you in opposite team then x3 I hope to not be very bad
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
XDDDD Really?
I've penta'd like ten times with her.
Twice with Anivia but I just got her.
Twice with Yi, One with Nunu.
And then one with Karthus, but he's easy XD
Just ult after a team fight where they're all getting away XD
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ObliviousDoll Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I know how it feels.
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2013
:huggle:
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Immoral-Immortal Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012
I hate this emo- bs. It's always on the front page too.
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CoLoRFuLLCaTT Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2012
I agree, but then again I don't think that he was trying to get on the front page. To me, it seems like writing this poem was his way of venting his pain instead of cutting himself. So its not exactly emo bs.

Nonetheless, I don't like hearing about and seeing people cut and inflict pain upon themselves so I agree with you.
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TheAmericanRealist Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012  Student Writer
Oh boo hoo. Are you just jealous for not having any artisic talent of yor own?
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Immoral-Immortal Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
I don't call this artistic talent.
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2013
I won four national poetry competitions and about twenty in my area, believe me, I have more artistic talent than you considering you don't even have any deviations :)
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TheAmericanRealist Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012  Student Writer
I'd be surprised if you even know what the term means!
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Immoral-Immortal Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
Oh, I forgot people aren't allowed to have opinions.
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TheAmericanRealist Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012  Student Writer
No. No they're not!
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2013
Thank you Realist.
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TheAmericanRealist Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2013  Student Writer
Eh, people piss me off, so I have to comment. Then they piss me off even more and then I have to hurt something. :3
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
I didn't even know I got to the front page until I saw this.
And nor do I care about it.
I wrote it because I had to.
Don't like it, don't comment.
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IsleintheSkye Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Student Writer
If only it were so easy.





Do what you have to, then pay for it.
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Contradictory55 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Student Writer
I almost feel like at the end, it's missing an italicized part...what is probably the only redeeming quality of humanity, our hope for a future we affect by what we do right now...but that's just me, always wishing for a bit of hope in everything I read and write ^^;
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
It's not. Because the italics are a conversation with my friend ^^"
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Contradictory55 Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012  Student Writer
AAAAAAAH.
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WinterWolf10 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
This is so sad, Reaper. Well written, but so so sad. :(
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Vivigirl13 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012
:hug: ;-;
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
Hold up.
13?
:iconskylark13: did the same as you :|
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Vivigirl13 Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
:iconjennamarblesplz:
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LivingInMyThoughts Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012
:hug: Well, I'm not sure if this'll help at all, but two people I know stopped cutting this way, so...

The Butterfly Project. Think of someone you love, and draw a butterfly on you arm. If you cut, you have to tell them you killed their butterfly. Just draw another butterfly on your arm everytime you want to cut as an alternative.

I hope things get better for you, and if you need to talk, I'm open whenever I'm online. :huggle:
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
Wouldn't work.
I promised her I wouldn't cut.
So I didn't.
Instead I wrote a poem about it.
To make sure I wouldn't.
But now my heart hurts still...
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LivingInMyThoughts Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
I'm glad you found a way to aviod it.
And... that's the great thing about humanity. Hurt heals. It may feel like hell getting there, but hurt always heals. Seriously though, if you need to talk - whether it be like now, or ranting or yelling or anything else - just shoot me a message, and I'll always be open to listen. Sometimes just letting go of whatever is bothering you helps.
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Skylark-13 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Student Writer
;-; :hug:
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Forgotten-Reaper Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
You and :iconvivigirl13: did the exact same thing xDD
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Skylark-13 Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012  Student Writer
PFFT. :U ME FIRST//shot
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DevilsJewel94 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
wonderfully done... I have been in the same place... it's sad but I find it very easy to relate to...
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DarlingAngel0565 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Professional Writer
I am only note away :huggle:
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